Longest Night

21 Dec
posted by Farvartish

posted by Farvartish




Tonight, we will pass through the longest night of the year.

We will regain a tiny bit of light, with each new day.



The end of 2013 seems to have opened a thousand little doors of terror inside me.  This is the first time I am “properly” developing a play.  That means I’m not jumping right into a production process but taking time to write, re-write, show it to others, share my thoughts, and hear the words read aloud. It’s brought me face to face with many of my feelings of inadequacy, superiority, futility, and desperation.  It’s been a long night in the life of this artist.

(What corner of your life needs a tiny bit of light?  Where are those dry, cracked places that can be softened by the heat, smoothed over by warm touch?)

Tree of Seeds by Stedroy Cleghorne

Tree of Seeds image by Stedroy Cleghorne


I’ve just returned from London where I was able to attend one of the two readings my play was offered.

Hearing the words read aloud brought clarity to what isn’t working and offered me a sharp view into what needs to change.  Sharp and pointy and slightly painful, but that’s my own inner critic.  The world outside my head offered ripe fruit and juicy seeds to chew on.  It reminds of the thoughts in my previous post about how people, human beings, are the most sustainable and valuable resource we have.

Sharing my misshapen, oozing, little work-in-progress has been a magical window into kindness and consideration.  People across the globe are offering their soft hands, their light touch, to guide this piece along.  Friends and family rallied to help me get to London.  The cast and crew in London offered their talent, their time, and their best thinking  to help  move the work forward.  I returned home with over 60 pieces of paper, audience feedback forms, that give me strength and energy and new thoughts!  And, there are a few theater companies waiting for the new script.

In Central and West Asia, people celebrate Shab-e-Yalda (solstice) by staying up all night together, eating red and orange and yellow foods, especially pomegranate.  They make wishes and recite the poetry of Hafez to each other.  You are supposed to open to any page in a book of his poems and read the first thing you see.  That excerpt is meant to offer some guidance, some insight to you.  Here’s what I turned to today:

“…And the hundred graceful movements
Your body now makes each time
The wind, children and love come near.”
― حافظThe Subject Tonight Is Love: 60 Wild and Sweet Poems of Hafiz

Thank you to everyone who helped me to move along with grace this past year. In the darkness, your hands, your voice, propelled me forward.

The warm wind blows up the edges on the thin grey shroud.  You can reach up and pull it down now.

It’s time.

Happy Shab-e-Yalda, Happy Solstice.



8 Responses to “Longest Night”

  1. Edward Wemytewa December 21, 2013 at 1:38 pm #

    Kayhan thanks for sharing and congrats on the progress. Happy winter holidays.

    Sent from my iPhone

  2. Norma Markley December 21, 2013 at 7:24 pm #

    5:30 pm … walking through Greenpoint in the direction of the river with a dusky, indigo blue cloud filled sky leading the way … December 21, 2013.

  3. Ricardo December 21, 2013 at 8:47 pm #

    Be it a blanket of warm wind or cold air, may you be snug beneath its touch. Happy holidays, dear Kayhan. Be blessed this new year. Cono.

  4. Diana Barnett December 22, 2013 at 6:21 am #

    Kayhan—you are one amazzzzing woman, that I am proud to call my friend, and bare witness to your ever-evolving journey!!. I must say your raw-ness and vulnerability in this new blog, highlights not only your bravery but your dedication and drive to push through the tougher parts of your life in order to get to the light and bright of your heart and soul….. I am sure London was tough in my ways…but pinch yourself at the same time…as (1) you were in London, England gurrrrl, hello!!….(2) and your work is being listened by a new audience, a broader audience and yes (3) you will tweek it and work it and re-write it until you have created more artistic magic that we all can witness and experience….I can’t wait. I love you tonsssss…Have a wonderful Holiday for you both….look forward to seeing you soon! Di xo

  5. Diana Barnett December 22, 2013 at 6:24 am #

    PS—I love the word GRACE that you used to say thank you for …”those who helped me move along with grace…”….we all could use a own and share a little more grace for 2014 xoxox di

  6. mrigakshi December 22, 2013 at 7:36 am #

    so beautiful..happy holidays Kayhan 🙂 wish you lots of light in every new day. love

  7. Mani Patel December 23, 2013 at 4:03 am #

    God Bless you Kayhan. Was in Navsari this week-end and all of us spoke of you fondly. Am looking forward to February. Till then take care and know that you are blessed. Be happy and smile always.
    Love you,

  8. Lovji Cama January 11, 2014 at 5:24 pm #

    Hi Kayhan,
    It seems you are going through the pains of professional maturity. Don’t doubt yourself, you will make it to a great future and I wish it for you.

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